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How has a failure, or apparent failure, set you up for later success?

When I was pregnant with our first child, I got very very sick. Every day I would puke 20-30 times. My body was exhausted and my mind didnt work properly anymore. The doctors didn’t really know what to do anymore, because they had tried so much. I couldn’t think a whole sentence anymore.

In the end, I needed that.

This whole situation led me into such an intimacy saying: God, I don’t want this, but if this is your way, bring it on. It is the most healing thing to rest even in the most difficult times in the peace, that God is in control. I needed to learn that, in my understanding, in my pain, ONLY JESUS!

I didn’t realize it then, but I was such a workaholic, it took a toll on me. This was the only way to stop me and to lead me on such a deep path of pain and joy in the Lord at the same time.

So, the last three years I’ve been on a journey of slowing down and experiencing God in new different, exciting and healing ways.

And just an appreciation: My husband literally helped me through this difficult phase, caring for me with such a Jesus love, that I started to understand, I was worth all the love that I never fully could take on before.

And I learn to love myself more every day since then.

Have you ever experienced how such a difficult situation has been used by God for your healing journey? 🙏🏽